Post by simon on Feb 24, 2011 3:36:21 GMT -5
"I KNOW THE WORLD'S A BROKEN BONE, BUT MELT YOUR HEADACHES CALL IT HOME."
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welcome to Fairytale Gone Bad.
hi there, Omii, welcome to the site! so i hear you're male. that's pretty cool. no worries, we won't hold that against you. so you've been doing this crazy rp thing for 1 year? holy cow! we're really excited about your three character(s)! what's your character(s) name again? Jenson Delampe, Xavier Culles, Johnny Smith. awesome. oh, how old are you? 22? wow. that's pretty old. well, that's it for the rper. time to get to know your character!
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Hello, Simon Calvin Lyons.
» Is there anything you would rather be called?
"Simon is fine."
» Great, now that we've got that covered. How old are you?
"18..."
» You know, has anyone ever told you that you look exactly like...?
"...I don't deserve to look like anyone. But Jesse Williams is fine..."
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Let's talk about your personality.
» What are a few of your favorite things?
"Well. I don't have any favorites anymore. I don't deserve to have favorites. I used to like adventure. The pure joy of finding more in the world. It was a rush that nothing else could give me. I felt like I could do anything. Anything that I put my mind to. I used to love the breeze outside. The wind sliding against my body as I ran across the fields. It was relaxing and soothing. It helped me calm down when I was stressed out. My favorite thing of all were animals. I had a natural connection to them. They were my friends. With the animals, the breeze, and the fields, I was on top of the world! I was the king! But that was a long time go. Back when times were good. Back when my fa...
...when my father was alive. "
»That's interesting. Is there anything you absolutely dislike?
"Darkness. It's a scary place. It's a void in which you can't escape from. No matter how hard you try, it always comes back. You try to stay in the light, but light can't exist without darkness. It's a seed growing inside of your body, waiting to sprout and spread it's roots at any given time. I hate it. I hate it so much. It scares me. But...there's nothing I can do about it. It shows me every detail of that moment. That exact moment when my life went downhill. But...I deserve it. Everything second of it. Because it's my fault. My fault..."
» Hm, what is your greatest fear?
"Fear? I am past the stage of fear. The stage of not knowing what will pop out and scare your very soul and pry it from your flesh. My fears are gone. I am a weak shell now. Incapable of feeling anything. Of feeling fear and pain and suffering. I have already suffered enough. No. I deserved my pain. I deserved the fear. I must suffer more. It's the only way to ease the pain. It's never gonna get better. Ever..."
» Yeah, that is scary. Do you have any dreams for the future?
"Dreams? Dreams are for the weak minded. The ones that are too scared to make them reality. Dreaming is for nobodies who will never make it and must rely on false visions of the future to make themselves feel good. I used to have dreams. I dreamed to be the king of my own little world. I dreamed to be the best. I dreamed to be a great son to my father. My father...
You see where dreaming got me? Nowhere."
» Wow, I hope you succeed. Can you tell me a little bit about yourself?
"I am Simon. I am many different things. I am a male. I am eighteen years old. I am an only child. I have...had a father. I am tall. I am different. I am...was brave. I am a fuck up. I am dead. I am me. I am wrong. I am dumb. I am inferior to all. I am loyal. I am...was free. Not anymore. I am unique. I am not myself anymore. I am a puppet. I am Simon. And I deserve everything that has happened to me."
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So far so good. Now for history.
» So tell me, where are you from? What did you think of it?
"I am from an American-settled village in Africa called Sarabi. Not a big village, but one nonetheless. What I thought about it? It was a place to sleep. The fields were more important to me. But the thing is this. Where I'm from isn't the important question. The question is where I will be going next. I cannot answer that question because the future is never clear. You can't make plans for the future because it's a bitch and will profoundly fuck your life up. Trust me, I know..."
» Do you have any other family? Parents? Siblings? Extended? What do you think about them?
"Do I have family. It depends on what you mean by "family". Family, as defined by Webster's Dictionary, is a basic social unit consisting of parents and their children. If following these rules, then no. I do not have family. Maybe once in the past, but not anymore. My mother isn't here. She doesn't care about me either. She's probably dead. Do I care? No. I am incapable of caring. My...father is a different story. He did care. He loved me for who I was and would protect me from any harm. He was my friend. Was being the keyword. Why do I say was? Because I killed him, that's why. I was my fault. He's dead and is never coming back. I'll never have someone love me like that ever again. And I deserve it. Every ache and pain in my body is earned and I gladly accept it into my life. So yes, I don't have a family. I do, however, have someone. My uncle. Though by the dictionary's term, he's not family, I still consider him to be. He cares for me. He wants me to live my live how I want to. But I can't. I can't allow myself to have fun. Never again. I must live my live in agony. And no matter what my uncle says, I still deserve it..."
» What is your worst memory/memories?
"The day my father was killed. The day I took the life of the one person that meant something to me. My life went downhill. I couldn't eat. Couldn't sleep. My mind raced 24/7. I couldn't take it anymore. I stood at the edge of a cliff. Ready to end it all right then and there. But I felt a hand clasp unto my shoulder. The words "Come with me." echoed into my spirit and from that moment on, I knew that this was meant to be. I'm not meant to be a dead soul, wandering the earth endlessly to find his release. I'm meant to stay here on this planet to live out my life with all of the pain and troubles I have. I wouldn't have been fair. Fair to my father. Fair for me to end my life prematurely to make the pain go away. I had to live it out. And I deserve this."
» What is your best memory/memories?
"My best memory is life right now. All of it. The best thing that could have happened to me is being loyal to my uncle. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me...."
» Where are you now? What are you doing with your life?
"I am living my life how I should. Time goes on and I must fo with it. I can never have my father back. I will never be that sweet little adventurous boy that everyone loved on. You know why? Because life sucks and times have changed. I took the life of my father and am reaping the consequences. Do I regret it? No. I do know something though...
I deserve it."
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roll the credits.
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